Illusory

I have nightmares to make you giggle
and dreams you could never understand
like drinking up the sun
or holding fire in my hands

of being torn or sliced
into a thousand tiny pieces
or being teased and raped
by all your crazy demons

of drowning in the noise
just to be petrified by the silence
or sinking to the bottom
in an ocean filled with violence

of dancing naked on the moon
with rock n roll ghosts from outer space
or looking in the mirror
and for once, not seeing the devil's face

of writing lyrics to a song
with nothing but the color blue
or solving all the mysteries of life
like knowing every part of you

of painting all your walls
with every drop of my red blood
or shoving my heart down your throat
and choking you with my love

I have nightmares that make your shiver
and dreams you just might understand
like squeezing life out of the blazing sun
or holding your heart inside my hands