Nightmares About Magic and Everything Tragic

Lies
Told
Bought & Sold
Causing mass confusion

Truth
Lost
Paying the Cost
& Control is just an illusion

Or perhaps real

Going
Fast
Won't
Last
Reasons becoming clearer

Covering
Up
Excellent
Front
Until you face the mirror

Or perhaps you won't

P.S. Might not get a 3rd chance.

Never Too Late

No, it's not too late. As long as your heart still beats and you are living and breathing, you CAN fix this. Throw your pride out the fucking window. This is so NOT about who's right and who's wrong. Talk to them. Pick up your fucking phone and call them. Choke back that smug fucking attitude and wipe that stupid smirk off your face. Try on some sincerity and humility for once. Say you're sorry and that you've fucked up. I'll bet you a sharpie that they'll listen and that they'll forgive you. These are your friends. They're not trying to keep you from being happy, but they don't want to watch you kill yourself. Tell them everything. Tell them you want to stop. Tell them you're tired of the way things are. Tell them need their help. Tell them you can't do it by yourself.

Turn to the one who is closest to you and hold her. Trust her. Love her like she has never been loved before. Give her all of you, not just the parts she fell in love with. Have the kind of romance that people dream of having. Treat her differently than the others. Be the best to her. Be the best for yourself.

Apologize to your family for taking them for granted. You only get one and no matter what they've done to you or what you've done to them, they will always be your family. Make them proud. Be an example for your younger brother. Be his hero. Help your mother dry her tears for you. Go see her. Let her know you are going to be ok.

And finally, when you get up on that stage again, take a look around. Take yourself back to being that kid in the crowd. Memorize the faces of those who sing your songs back to you. Those are real people with real feelings. Don't take that power lightly. You don't have to be a hero just be yourself. Sign more autographs. Smile more. Shake their hands and TALK to them. It takes so little and it means so much.

There's still time.

P.S. You need batteries.

Blood

You were born and life as I knew it ceased to exist. Everything shifted and we now shared the center of the same universe. Nothing was mine anymore. Excited but unsure. Should I be jealous of you? Should I protect you? Should I be the one to teach you? What if I didn't know all the answers?

Through our life together, you became my best friend and my worst enemy. My grounding force when I lost control. You know my fears. I know you hate spiders. You know I cry too much, so you would make me laugh. I know how you hate to lose, so I would let yow win. We fought a lot, but never wanted to be apart. You know all my weak spots and use them to your advantage, but only because I let you. You are the only one who can get away with that. You are my constant reminder of all my shortcomings, but you accept them. We balance each other out so well.

I hope you are as proud of me as I am of you. I hope I am someone you can respect. I hope that I can still make you mad enough to think. I hope that you are never afraid to come to me. I hope we will continue to be best friends for the rest of our lives.

I'm so glad my life changed on that day. How lonely I would have been without you! I'm so thankful we shared it all together. The same blood, the same lives, the same memories, the same universe.

P.S. Remember 1987?