Sunday, March 2, 2008

Spring

Butterfly wings
Bumble bees
Birds tweet and chirp
Dogs rolling in the grass
My back door opening and closing
Headphones blaring
Skin becoming pink from the sun
Flip flops
Ice melting in my glass
Wasps buzzing
Blooms and blossoms
Windows rolled down
Back porch barbecues
Resting in the hammock
Ponytails
Bass fishing
Four wheeler trails back dirt roads
Climbing fences
Children playing outside until dark
Hiding a bouquet of flowers behind your back wanting to surprise your mama
Catching bugs
Picking up rocks
Laughter
Love
Family
Friends

A new beginning for all......



Baby girl, this is the time of year that I miss you the most. Oh how you loved the outdoors. Grandma would let you pick every last flower in her yard. Ladybugs and rollie pollies. You saw the beauty in every living thing. I can still see you standing at my door...the bluest eyes, the blondest hair, the sweetest smile, the purest heart. I miss you. Every single day that goes by, I miss you. But I know, that you walk beside me and with me throughout my life. You are my little angel.

15 comments:

Anonymous said...

This is great.

A great change of pace.

Here's to new beginnings.

Anonymous said...

If you don't mind me asking, who's your little angel?

You two seem very attached still, and that's a beautiful thing.

sdock10 said...

She's my little cousin, and she died when she was 9. Cancer. She would be 14 now.

I don't think I have ever been loved so much by someone. I used to babysit her from the time she was 10 months old until I finally had to get a real job and go to work. I can still see her standing in the doorway at my office...waving to me and grinning...and that was the day everything changed. That was the day we found out about the tumor.

She fought so hard and she never lost her love for others or that beautiful smile.

I miss her so freaking much. When I went back to Mayo's after writing this, I was still crying and shaking.

To this day, I believe it's one of the moments in my life that I don't think I will ever get over. Never.

Anonymous said...

Solly, what a sweet dedication to her. You have a kind heart.

I can almost feel Spring through the words you chose.

Anonymous said...

Sdock, that's so special and vibrant.

It's such a great thing to know a life like that. She seems absolutely perfect.

It's so strange how changes in season bring about the most beautiful of thoughts.

MissTottenham said...

Solly, I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I'm sure you brought a lot of happiness into her life as she did for you.

I love you to infinity, beat that.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

MissTottenham said...

OK, I love you to infinity times infinty.

Beat that!

xxxxxxxx

Amyranth said...

Sockity Sock Sock Sockers!

Miss you, you're never around when I am!

Oh well, back to the coloring book for me!

-A

anima said...

Solly, this is a beautiful post. I'm so sorry for your loss. And she was so young. It makes my heart break.

I came by to tell you that I miss you so fucking much. And even when I'm not around, I'm thinking of you.

I ♥ ya sweetie.

-Anima

Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing your love :)

soulconnector said...

Your words and thoughts...
heard and duly noted, my friend.

May I say, I love your spring
and memory of an Angel.

take care
`sc

Smoke said...

Can't you hear her giggle from time to time? I can. And singing some No Doubt. ^_^


Blueberries and butterflies.

Frogs and lizards.

She was one of a kind that's for sure. She had her halo and wings the minute she was born. We just couldn't really see them but they were there the whole time.

She always did love you the best, ya know?

JocelynHolly said...

You are such a kind and beautiful person.

Spring is such a refreshing season. It's a time to start things over. =]

I miss you very, very much Sollydock. Please, don't push too many of Mayonaise's buttons.

Love you;
- 007
<3

JocelynHolly said...

Sdock, I'm back again. =]

Thanks for visiting my blog.

Fucked up? Wouldn't you rather be fucked up and know it than be in denial about it? I think our acknowledgment of this lets us understand and help others.

Maybe a little FuckedupFu?

It's so wrong for me to use my dirty mouth in your blog. I feel like I am trashing the place.

I'm leaving you a sack full of extra hugs to take with you everywhere you go.

Don't you ever change!


I actually laughed when I read this. Your dirty mouth is always welcome. And yes, I would rather be fucked up and know it than be in denial about it. Why I chose that, I don't know. ^_^

I must say I'm sorry for my constant negativity lately, I've just been feeling a little pestered lately. I always seem to make decisions, that I know I won't like. I'm pretty sure I like challenging myself. Maybe that's why I'm getting upset.. with myself.

Anyways, I miss you tons! Princess Smoke too!

xoxo;
- 007

MissTottenham said...

I wuv you.