Standing on the edge
Believing I can fly
100% chance of failure
Will it matter if I try?
So I am done waiting for a full page of fluid thoughts to come my way, I am about to write this shit as it comes to me. It might make sense or it might not. But this shit has got to go. And I am tired of waiting.....
Feel me?
Fuck yes, you do.
p.s. Cliffhanger
A work in progress is what I have become....
Swinging
Tap, tap, tap
Goes my pen on my page
Leaving nothing but little dots
I'm empty
But enraged.
It will be a miracle
if I can complete a single thought.
In between the dots are scribbles,
Really, I should just fucking stop.
Sometimes you have to face it
that you have nothing new to say.
Now, I am drawing smiley faces
and wasting the day away.
Tap, tap, tap
I hear the sound again.
If I could only find the words,
I'd get tons of use out of my new friend.
I've hidden all the answers
So deep within my heart.
I can't blame you for not finding them.
Fuck, I don't even know where to start.
I'm not asking you to read me
or for you to even listen.
But just in case you happen to,
Can you by chance tell me what I'm missing?
My smiley faces stop
and I am now drawing flowers.
I'm still not digging deep enough
and I'm such a fucking coward.
So for now I will put my pen away
and give this shit a rest.
And I'll go back to doing nothing
Afterall, it's what I do best.
p.s. 2 for 1 deal today
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Right now, baby, I'm going to open my arms and you crawl right up close to me and we'll just cuddle for a bit.
I hope that sounds good for you, too.
Oops, Oscar is Gentle Vengeance! Didn't mean to write in that name.
sdock10 said...
feel me?
Yes I do
fly my friend..fly
love to you
`sc
Fly, sister, fly.
You can do it. Orville and Wilber did it, so can you.
Just believe in yourself and you will sprout angel wings.
Sdock, I've missed you loooots lately!
We rarely get a chance to talk. I blame the timezones! I miss you lots, and love you tons!
I'm sending all the hugs in my power right now. Can you feel it? Fuck yeah you do.
(you're rubbing off on me*blushes*)
All my love;
- 007
<3
2 for 1... so does that mean I get twice the Sdock lovin' as usual? ^_~
Ooops, sorry, PPU... *looks around for unicorns*
I've missed you, my friend. You're a daytimer and I'm a nightimer, maybe one of these days we'll be lucky and our timezones will cross again.
*HUGZ* I love you, Socky!
- Trikki Nikki
sdock keep the words flowing. Let them out and see the beauty of what you create. Love ya.
Thanks Sdock.
Although I must admit that us being tied together and all, that situation would be awkward ;)
It's just so back and forth and I can never straighten shit out. It's funny in a way because it's such a pathetic thing. And I can't help but laugh at myself. All of these thoughts ran through my head about how the likelihood of that ever happening to me, never being able to even reach the point of engagement, to never even having been in a relationship with anyone, to never being able to try on a dress, to never having my friends watch me try it on, the likelihood of it happening was nill.
And at that exact moment all of that was going through my head, we were having a good time, so I was okay with it all. I was happy to see her in that position. I was happy that was happening to her, ya know? And that wasn't a time for me to dwell on my shortcomings. That was her time, and I was okay with everything. And then it all came to a crashing halt.
So, yeah. It just comes in waves and I'm just riding this one to shore.
*strokes sdocks hair back and kisses her forehead*
Love you sweetie.
Sdock?
Are you around?
I saw you today! I waved back and I threw you a bunch of hearts ('cept I messed them up). I hope everything's okay?
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